Are You Who They Say?

Perceiving how others see me, doesn’t mean that’s who resides within. It is my own understanding of myself that matters- that is true and authentic. If others can’t bother to take the time to really know me, it is their loss. And not many do.

But the ones that do? Are close for life no matter how far away in the physical realm, they remain close in soul. Time on the land and with myself has offered a view into how others see me.

The problem that arises from that is taking that perception as the truth. Looking deeper within, the slights they perceive don’t exist. The being internally is far better than that. But the habit for decades is to see the truth how others see it who are not out for my best interests, though say they are.

So easy to believe the worst of myself. Much harder to see the beauty, grace, and honesty. There are true friends who have tried to tell me that, choosing instead not to see it, longing for acceptance in places where it never comes. But the only place that matters is within.

Don’t you see? Look, and you shall see the truth, the beauty, grace, and honesty. A lifetime of living like a dinghy on rough waters, rocking to and fro, seeing myself as others do, others that are looking out for their own needs, not mine.

It is a new adventure to look at the truth like a flower in my hand and inspect the uniqueness in all its flawed splendor.


Tensing up when Criminal T comes on the news, whether concerning the upcoming impeachment, or anything else illegal he has done that keeps getting dug up the more others dig, mostly it’s relief causing my shoulders to un-crunch and relax.

Honesty, honesty leads the way. Not only in the oval office but in every institution the criminal sullied and turned into a sham of its former reputation.

Now there is freshness and hope. When a new director of each federal institution speaks- it is truth. If for some reason it isn’t, they will be gone in a heartbeat.

Honesty. My heart feels happy, lighter, and gay with it.