Each day challenges: old haunts, familiar yet unhealthy ways of being, habits ritualized over the years- habits of thinking that put me in a negative light, all that I touch, think of, and do is perceived as bad or wrong.
There has been no crime committed, yet in my mind I am the crime, a disturbed self-portrait painted by familial sexual abuse at an early age.
So, each day begins anew with self-talk, much needed self-talk. Friends have given a helping hand over the years but could take me only so far.
The real change, the real challenge, is what’s inside, and discovering self-esteem for myself. What others have given has saved me many times, pulled me up from drowning, live-saving, yet temporary.
It is a new and delicious way of viewing myself, the world, and my place in it… that I deserve joy and happiness.
Not from what I’ve done or will do, but by being me.
Life is not easy, it is hard, yet there is joy, there is light, but it must be found both inside and outside myself.
Patricia J Grace 
Everyday is indeed a challenge these days as we are all opening up to discover who we truly are. If we’re lucky we can allow ourselves to feel everything that comes up now… to acknowledge, embrace and release of experience that has brought us to this moment. AND the more we release the more we can feel our natural essence of love, joy and peace. Always here, the divine part of us that can guide us into our dreams come true… if only we keep focus to the light❤️ beautiful heartfelt post Patricia… Thankyou for shining your light and joy🥰 much love x
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and a ‘beautiful heartfelt’ response, thank you too…
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Well said-lovely post. 🙂
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Thank you!
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