Things go along really well, so well it feels miraculous, then they don’t. Once believing that something happened in the daytime to make sleep impossible, it seems not. The reason relates solely to chronic PTSD issues that have compounded the usual sleep issues aging women often have.

Taking the gifts life offers means accepting the harder stuff too. The darker days and time change have taken a glorious summer with good sleep patterns and shortened them, disrupting everything else.

Striving for that steady feeling of being in my body no matter what feeling passes through is a new and novel experience, one that poor sleep and tiredness steals. To be back in it and whole is so relished. Decisions come more naturally, steadiness guides my day, and much gets accomplished without rush or leaving my body.

Sleep and wholeness, gifts of the season to work towards…

4 thoughts on “STRUGGLING

    1. I don’t know what the #$%^ is going on but it might have everything to do with the state of things. How could it not? Hope grows as the transition has finally begun…. delayed, but begun. Thank you Alice…. : )


      1. I think a lot of us are feeling unease, stress, anxiety right now. As you said, how could we not? I’m thankful that the transition has begun. Just that has helped to take some of the edge off, I think. I hope the same is true for you. You always have such wise things to say, and I think in this instance you might tell me to take things a moment at a time, to breathe and to be gentle with myself. So, that’s what I’m going to say back to you. Be kind to yourself, and know it’s okay to struggle, and that it is okay to do what you need to in order to get through this. We are survivors, and we will get through this.❤️

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