The Tooth

“How are you?” asks the dentist.

“I am two people,” I reply, and the air was still, adding before she was able to figure out what to say next, “a terrified child, and a person who asked you for help knowing you are competent to do it.”

“I’m sorry you went through all that,” she replied, and the two of them went to work.

The process of getting the lost filling repaired took about an hour, but the rest of the day felt wasted. Too tired from the medication needed to calm my flight of flight response meant resting afterwards. I even fell asleep for a lengthy nap which is a rarity. But still, this time was different.

Rather than a rumbling terror each day prior, my message to myself, or more precisely to the terrified child within, was, I’ll take care of it. It’s only a tooth to be fixed.

And compared to the terror of what’s floating in the air these days, tooth problems do seem minor. Yet my PTSD symptoms worsening with age won’t go away because I tell them to. Medication was still needed.

Though seemingly a wasted day, it was not. It was of great achievement. The hunk of filling came out about when the pandemic hit. My tongue has slipped over the rough edged gap ever since not chewing on that side.

The owner of the office assured me that the they dispel a spray in-between patients, and I’d be first in anyway. But I wish the two working on me didn’t chat back and forth while only 6 inches from my face. Stick to what is needed to be said about the process, not senseless chatter.

In normal times unrelated chatter soothes, but now caused worry. They had on masks and eye gear, but no shields. How do I know if their breathing and talking wasn’t getting on me lying there with my mouth open? It seemed very wrong for both patient and provider.

But it’s done, I did it!

6 thoughts on “The Tooth

    1. Thank you. It was a rather whopper of an achievement! Hope yours goes smoothly, which I’m sure it will when you’re ready. The equipment these days is very advanced, along with the medication given. No pain at all. Just my nerves to keep in check…. : )

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  1. You made it! I’ve got some dental work I scheduled just before everything began shutting down. Even though my dentist’s office was still open as everything else began to close, I cancelled my appointment. My issue isn’t dire and the work can wait. If things haven’t reopened before my next cleaning, I’ll deal with it then. Once again, bravo to you!

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    1. I was going to put it off until it hurt, but when she called as soon as the office opened up for business again, I had just had a dream about having it done.
      So, rather than wait, I did it despite the risk of corona. It would have to done eventually anyway… whew!

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