What can you do to nurture yourself today? The barrage of negative feelings that tend to speak first with volume is ongoing challenging work to confront. Snippets of success here, a backwards landslide next, leaving me discouraged.
But over time a miracle. A voice first heard that encourages, supports and booms louder than the old one once scourging my interior with brash, insidious, destruction… just like Tom.
Assuming the role of the attackers became my way. A life of attacking myself takes time to reverse. And over time, the new me that reflects more truly the original me, flourishes. Being in my own body, mind, and heart feels at home, the welcome mat out.
Doing simple tasks or pastimes is OK. I don’t have to change the world, just my thoughts about myself. Liking myself, being a part of the world with this new liking of myself, feeling just as equal to others instead of less than, so less than I’d think of death, or feel I deserved to be dead, is a gift—to the world, but most especially to myself.
Maybe for some it is a rite of passage from childhood to maturity. For many, it is not. The work to achieve a connection to my core when daring to touch it, feeling a bit of awe and admiration for what is there, and has been all along, took time. It took a life, and that work continues.