Open and Stay

latest mosaic 

Move back into the body, slow down, breathe. Again and again this reminder is needed. At the sink my mind flies past the present chore unconnected to brain or body, and my hand slips off the dish in my haste. And this is how my life has been lived, roaring past the present moment- not living in it.

How could it be any different? The splintering occurring during rape was complete… the severing of self, absolute. It takes work, plus a great deal of courage to be here now. Is now in the present moment safe? Feeling it wasn’t, my psyche took me elsewhere, and when a break is needed that ‘safe place’ is visited. 

A loud or sudden noise, a simple disagreement, angst of any kind, spirals the body into overload and fright. It is not by choice to be this way. It is my choice to work toward patience, kindness and gentleness, nurturing a softness for self that opens rooms full of riches ready to be explored.  


10 thoughts on “Open and Stay

  1. I so agree, it is not by choice that we have these challenges. They were forced upon us at such a young age. I always love how you process and find the present moment in your posts. Your quotes are always so profound. Thanks for sharing them.

    Liked by 1 person

  2. I love your latest mosaic, it has its own special shine of brilliance 🙂

    I relate to those feelings you describe , the anxiety and the loud noises, the disagreements etc that trigger such a strong reaction within. I think it’s only now in my 40’s that I’m aware of the havoc that the abuse wreaked on my body.

    Your posts help me because I can relate strongly and it makes me feel that there is a way for me. A way of peace and steadiness. Thank you for sharing

    Liked by 1 person

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s