This post discusses issues of the body and the chasm of disconnect that childhood sexual abuse causes with great clarity, wisdom and profound depth.
This entry might trigger you. It could be helpful for you to talk to someone if this happens.
The relationship I have developed with my body is an amalgam of complex psychological and emotional issues brought about by the effects of trauma, as well as being raised to be a beauty pageant contestant and model.
I had won beauty pageants and modeling competitions throughout my childhood and teen years and was a professional model in my twenties. I was raised to believe that my worth is directly related to my outward appearance, which contributes greatly to my current self-loathing for being overweight, due to the side effects of psych meds as well as my emotional binge eating.
As I mentioned in my post A Journey of Light and Love, I believe that my weight issues are also directly tied to my wanting to avoid unwanted sexual advances. My weight…
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