Soar into the depths of your own being…
I have sought solace from others as long as I can remember. And it helps to lean on others when only an empty hole was felt inside. But it didn’t fill me in a sustaining way because I had not found myself.
And how does one do that when trauma keeps them from their center? When resting on the nectar of the soul is impossible because it is on fire not freshly swelling with honey.
I’m not sure what the path is for others. There are so many. I am not sure what led me on mine, but spirit, determination, and a dogged persistence.
I use the word ‘attack’ when speaking of childhood sexual abuse. Abuse? One abuses tobacco, alcohol, drugs, food, and so on. When a child’s body is used for the evil, selfish, satisfaction of one’s lust, it is an attack, not abuse.
Everything that a child has known is stripped away; trust, innocence, the ownership of their own body, their rights, sense of self, …their very soul is stolen.
Where did she go?
The child I was disappeared. Who I am I work to find. And I am finding her, though ‘she’ is not the same woman I would have been or could have been. That was taken. I accept what was done with deep sadness. My wishing for otherwise stalls the growing process and prevents enjoyment of the present moment.
I carry sadness. I also carry a depth of soul to be cherished, nourished and honored. I will do my best to honor my own being…
I am terribly sorry for what you have been through. Good luck on your journey to find yourself. You are an inspiration to others who have similar experiences.
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Thank you for saying that, such kind words that feel good to hear.
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Those butterflies are so beautiful. Have a great day.
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Thank you! She has been sitting all summer, but now flies free… : )
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Smiles
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Stirring up feelings in the very depths of my soul. Love the kitty behind the screen door.
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Oh, I just love that you noticed. She follow me everywhere…
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Beautiful thoughts Patricia❤️
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Thank you!
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May you find that peace deep within you over and over and return to it at will and carry it with you! Stunning butterflies!
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Thank you! And may you too find that deep peace…
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Thank you 🙂
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You might not be the same woman that child would have grown into, but you are kind, strong, compassionate, brave, full of empathy; you have the ability to go to the ugliest depths of life, hear people’s stories, care about them and still see the good in them. You are a true butterfly. Xx
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Ah, you bring a smile and chuckle, thank you!
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(((Hugs)))
Love and light
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Thank you!
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